Hey -

Yeah, they are pretty good. They're small though. One serve is two sausages, and that's 100 cals. I found them in the supermarket where you get tofu and that non-bacon. Lol.

18 months does seem young to potty train, but I don't think it's a bad thing. My neice turned 4 in May and she still doesn't get it right. But that's because her parents are a**h***s and now she's scared of the toilet.

I'd love to get to 116, I think. I was pretty thin then, but it never seemed good enough at the time. Currently 152, so I have a lot of work to do.

Ash

yay potty training.

126, i'd kill to weigh that. that's my mid term goal, but it's still so far away. you really want to be grossed out. my waist is a 29.5 my tummy is 34. that is sick.

my end goal is 88....i'll never get there. hell i can't even get to 130.....

i wish i could count my ribs.. i apparently only have 2[lol]....

hope things start going better for you hon. i know this sounds crazy but i'm really glad you found some one that makes you happy, even if he is your boss.

[TheLostAngel]

i so know how you feel girl, my only thing is i do love my husband, or i did at one time anyway, now i just don't want to be around him..i hope it all works out for you..

hi, like the energy tht u hv..

wish i could do the same..

u knw wat, exercise is the best way 2 reduce weight, i've done tht 3 years back n in just 2 months, i gotta fabulous result..

but since i stopped it, i put on weight again...

i think i will follow ur way ..

Sorry i just had to say ur welll lucky!!

:)

wish i had that much green!! :/

Loveage xxx

Weed is a real drug, but so is chocolate.  And they seem to go nicely together.  =) 

Is 38 grams really ONLY $100?  Here an 1/8th sells for $35-$50 and that's 3.5g. 

my mom's going to go to the Philippines again when i move. it sucks:(

i'll fill out my fafsa as soon as i can. i went to scholarships.com and applied for scholarships and grants this morning.

i need good scholarships, and i'll have to get new ones each year i'm sure, i'm taking nursing first, but i want to continue to become an obstetrician, it takes 6 to 8years, but if i stayed committed that would mean i could be a doctor before age 30. 6 figures is great motivation,lol.

yay harvest season :))))

[TheLostAngel]

   Waynes th esame way about me being online when he is home- feels that I am ignoring him and that I'd rather be online than with him. So taking his feelings into account as I would like to have mine the same, I don't get on much when he is home.

    Hope that things stay level with your boss.

    Have a Blessed day!,

            Jewel

American Music Appreciation?

Would you be listening to the radio all day?? That sounds like my kind of class!

:D

and I wish I knew what to say about your boss situation, but I'm sure that you can't just quit like I did. I'm not sure what your job is, but it sounds like it'd be a lot harder to just walk away from than mine was.

i have a little jail tattoo on my wrist, and the chinese symbol for whore on my ankle.

but i'm definately wanting a lot more. so when the babes have school meetings and stuff, i can be the cool inked up mom!

:D

oh gosh..

i had to quit my job, because i was really close to having sex with tayler, especially the day after kitty died and jojo left me alone at home with him.

i didn't go too much into detail in my latest entry, but i will with the next one.

<3

Sky.

no it wasn't you. i've been feeling this way for a while now.

hmm...a bit confused i am. why couldn't you have sex with him?

anyways hope all is well for you and hope you figure things out.

-Juli

[fadingobsession]

ur welcome=]

i guess i kinda feel that way too... but a teen version lol

i have a boyfriend,but lately wen im round my best guy friend,

i want to do somethin that i know i shouldnt do till i married....haha....

i love givin massages...lol....i wanna be a massage therapist in future lol...im laughing cuz i hyper haha

to late. my ocd has been at an all time high this month. and then i end up back at freaking 154lbs. my mind can't cope with seeing numbers that high. it's already back to needing to count cals and fast, etc. i know i hate that every time i get "better" i get FAT. i feel okay and fine, but then i see numbers and have to start "dieting" again. i hate that it can come back so strong so quickly.

you take care of yourself as well. my problem is i'm messing up chances of having future children. you already have a little boy, be  careful i know you don't want him growing up with out mommy.

i love you hon. thanks for always being here.

-juli

good morning sunshine!

&& happay birthday!thats good u wanted to  confess,but i was sort of dissappointed wit these c oments.....i mean yer confessin sumthin to yer diary,their critique sounds like wat a mother would say.

or does it?

idk my mom dont talk to me ...

anyway....

if i could barf like that i would eat like a ton and then go parasailingright over one of those beach partys and like barf on there heads hahahaha....

sorry i just had coffee so im like a.d.d. + hypernesss

[xoxoredxoxo]

Heart Hugs! I don't think less of you...I think that you are amazing to deal with this illness as well as you usually do! We all have slips and setbacks..Atleast I do..

     Don't beat yourself up- Remember that YOU HAVE MADE GREAT PROGRESS!

   Have a blessed weekend!

   Prayers have been sent your way!,

            Jewel

lol, well that's not really old either. haha. now j he's pushing it, haha 28 in dec. lol:)

i hope things start going better for you. i understand purging feelings not just food. i have wanted to go back to that so many times this month, but i keep fighting it, i know if i do go back i'll probably never have a child[since my body is so messed up anyways]. but the thoughts are there, luckily i've been finding ways of distraction when i'm down.

i said a pray for you this morning. i worry about you honey.

<3 Juli

I would be pissed if my significant other forgot my birthday or didn't my acknowledge my birthday as well. Maybe you need to talk to him about this issue. The whole food issue is beyond my understanding. I mean we all could starvea and not eat anything but feeling bag cause you've had a fair share of what some children only dream of? I don't get that part.

I hope things workout for you.

Prosper

Ah, okay. I wasn't too sure if you would get all like, "You used my name!!! AHHH!!" I had another diary on another site, and it got deleted because I mentioned a diary user and she got really mad and reported me to the administrators, and they deleted me. xP

oh my gosh what a typical man!!

they really dont get it do they??

sorry to hear about your bday. i would be so sad if i were you!! id just tell him outright what you wrote here!! then he should understand..

wb

xx 

Aw gosh, I'm sorry about that.

My last birthday was in Texas, and I was the only one working, so I didn't get anything from anyone except this girl that worked with me. She made me a card.

And I'm still freaking out over the whole twins thing. It's going to be crazy!! We're still debatnig over the boy's name, though. I really like William Jaden King, but Jojo says that he doesn't like the whole two middle names thing. xP So we'll probably be unsure about that until January, when they get here!

<3

Sky.

we just want to feel wanted and special to the men in our lives..how hard is that for them to understand??

yay birthday!!

:D

i won't be nineteen until october. :P

and i found out that little Lula has a brother keeping her company in the womb!

it's all in today's entry!

<3

Sky.

good luck to your friend too.  i couldn't imagine....i'm with you on that one.

[nbriggs]

Wow, I wish your friend luck.  Happy birthday!!!  As for the age difference, I can't say anything because I'm 23 and my boyfriend of a year is 54.   Age doesn't mean a thing to me... I'm very much in love with him!  Anyway, not much else to say.  I hope you are doing okay.

Hugs,

Trinity

Happy Birthday!

Good luck to your friend! Sounds like she's going to need it!

your diary made me laugh

especially how you forgot your own bday lol

and good luck to your friend!!

wb

xx

the blue or strawberries. the black and white ones are pretty but with you being so fair skinned it will only make you look even lighter.

hope you're doing alright. <3 Juli

I think the strawberry one...

That's gonna leave some serious tan lines...lol

i think he's going to be bankrupt before he's 40, though.

it's ridiculous how much he wastes money...

Oh, and the lake was just wonderful today! I got sunburned, though! But my belly didn't!

:D

And you know what Jerrey did??

Bought another freakin' boat!!

I'm like, "Jeeze, I hope you have the money to support everyone after buying all of these boats!"

It's a house boat, too. 60,000 dollars. Sometimes he makes me sick throwing around money like that!!

:P

Yeah...I wouldn't want my period to be any worse than it already is!

Besides the whole creating a new life to love and cherish, my other favorite thing about being pregnant is no visit from Aunt Flo!

Yay!!

Jojo thinks the house might explode from all the estrogen.

I assured him that even though he might start having a period, our house wasn't going to explode.

Hahahahah..

When my doc was checking for the gender, she thought she had seen two babies! I was like, "Oh gosh, that would be my luck." But it was just Lula's arm or something.

Actaully, about two years ago mom got an IUD..Mirena, I think. She had it taken out because of cysts. But all of the women in our family have ovarian cysts. Lexi had one removed about a year ago, and after I have the baby I'm supposed to get some removed, too. But I also have cysts in my earlobes. Those hurt like a mofo.

xP

<3

Sky.

i liked being pregnant every time. i felt more womanly. it made me more confident. i felt pretty. i wish i would have got to get a really baby belly, i think they are beautiful. i can't wait to get pregnant.

find out as much as you can before you choose what kind of iud to get. [random fact my mother got pregnant with an iud in, it got pushed out of place].

[could the chest pains be from panic attacks, or anxiety attacks. mine always hurt my chest, and make it tight like an anvil is being sat on top of it..]

good luck with everything.

<3 Juli

no no no ill add you. i was tinking the same thing. i wouldnt want anyone to start because of me but i do want to help the ones who really want it.

but im expecting to never see a negitive comment from you because thats also another reason im going private. so if i see even one thats it.

-me

Talk is cheap and lies are expensive.

- Pandora

I might have to get on Amazon and find that book.  I know what I should be doing as far as eating goes, but getting a little extra motivation is never bad.

My fav book that I just finished--The Historian, by Elizabeth Kostova.  Historical fiction, adventure, vampirism--set in Europe.  Great read, found it in an airport and I was hooked.

French is a sexy language.

(Thanks for the comment, and yes--the tattoo is a little off center.  Drunken college days.)

And I found out after I posted that entry that she's been taking a lot of pills, too. She's abused prescription pills my whole life, but I thought she had quit after I moved to Texas. I think she's just bound and determined to kill those poor babies before they're born.

Uuuugh, she's always been like that..just not as blunt. She likes using blanketed comments more. Grawr..

But Grace and Isabella are the unborn twins. Everyone's telling her that she needs to stop smoking and drinking, but she says that it'll 'make the babies a little more interesting.' Yeah, shows what kind of mother she is.

xP

<3

Sky. 

oh gosh, i've already gained ten pounds AFTER all of that walking..

my aunt's making me eat eat eat! she says i need to gain weight..she compared me to a stick with a tiny growing knot in the middle!!

|o  <<like that. but the baby's not pooched out like that...yet.

xP

and i hate driving sticks..that's what my car is, and it drives my crazy..but it's pretty fun when i get out on the fields and go like, 70 mph and chase cows and whatnot..

<3

Sky.

YAY for acing your classes! Go You!

    Glad that you had fun camping!

  Have a Blessed day!,

         Jewel

this is really pretty.

it's kind of inspirational, really...

<3

Sky.

Beautiful Baby

1.25 an hour,

I dunno were you are from but were I am that would be illegal.

Its WAY below minimium wage.

I make 6.35/h

hehe how cute he loves baths. i can't wait for pictures.

i'm doing good actually. we're going to start trying for a baby as soon as i'm through with af. so next week we're back to baby making,lol.

how are you doing?

Ahhh thats okay! I think i'd look pretty swish with grey hair

xxx

Well, that's cool. I know a lot of boys don't like baths. Maybe that will come later. I guess you can just take advantage of it, for now! Can't wait to see pics!

I just got this amazing image of a gorgeous little boy running about yelling Bath!!!

Sound so cute :)

Can I have him for a day? Please?

xxxx

you aren't a drug addict protecting your "friends" anymore, police aren't the enemy.  you are a mother, a giver and protector of life, and you did the right thing. 

[Zen2theEnd]

i am praying for your fil and you as well hun.

love ya-Juli

I call the cops on drunk drivers all the time...I know that sounds bad but two of my uncles and two of my friends died driving drunk...I won't put up with it. 

So go u.

your welcome. i like skinny, so it was a good thing:)

love ya-Juli

you are super cute!

i love your baby as well! he's so cute!

btw, you are starting to look extremely skinny!

<3 Juli

That's ok, I wanted to. I'd hate to be causing drug cravings for you or anyone else. Aww cool, what's your sons name? I have a son called Tyler. It was his 1st birthday 3 days ago. He had a lovely time! Good luck with the weight loss! I think what works best is eating little meals but eating often. Take care xxxxxx

nyargh.

oh well..at least tums are yummy.

ya know, that's actually been one of my cravings! it's so weird, because i just woke up the other morning and had this wicked craving for some tums.

tums, cherry fanta, this really rich chocolate triple layer ice cream cake from wal-mart, and shrimp.

the last one is really weird, because i've never liked shrimp before in my life.

lawl...

did you crave stuff you've never eaten before?

<3

Sky.